If you think your big now, you just wait until....

I know a lot of women feel this way but in my case, it is really true. I did really well in terms of growth, the first 19 weeks of my pregnancy. That was the first 19 weeks.

At 19 weeks and 2 days I was noticeably bigger. Today makes 19 weeks, 5 days pregnant, I am officially in arguably pregnant. That means if someone looks at me, they can easily tell I am preggers. That means, I can no longer keep it a secret and when I pick up a cup of coffee or a pack of skittles, I get that you shouldn't eat that look from a perfect stranger. I am getting big.

In light of my recent and continuous expansion, I have been commenting to others on just how big I am. Without fail, I always get, If you think your big now you just wait until.....(fill in whatever month). I don't want to think about that now. I have to focus on just how huge I feel now. Or that I can now see my belly button through my shirt. All of this is weird.

What I am most nervous about, is getting so big that people feel the need to touch me. I don't want to think about that right now either. I will just focus on figuring out what to do with my bellybutton for now.

What next?

I must preface this by saying I am in no way an expert.....but I have the being pregnant thing down now. I know what I need to eat, I have the sleeping on my left side deal down. I no longer get anxious when my feet feel like they are going to explode. I have excepted this strange acne situation I have going on. We are all over the nursery and other things.

So I am ready to occupy my mind with other things, like childbirth and beyond. I have 3 specific areas in which I am currently starved for information about.
I don't have a birth plan and I am barely ready to begin building a plan.
I have no idea what type of sleep plan I will try to work in for Baby Turner upon arrival.
I need to figure out how I will conduct myself as a mother and a wife at the same time.

So I am currently looking for books and advice from multiple sources to help me figure out a birth plan, sleep plan and a life plan. LOL

Oh yes. I forgot breastfeeding. Another major thing I want to do for the baby. I want to be careful not to let it take over my life completely. I also want to provide the best nutrition for Baby Turner, so a good breastfeeding diet is key to accomplishing that goal.


With that said, I will have my head burried in the books over the next couple of months. Well actually the next few days. I am heading out to purchase, the following;

The No Cry Sleep Solution
Your Best Birth
Baby Proofing Your Marriage
Eat Well, Lose Weight While Breastfeeding.

Hopefully these books will be enough to keep me occupied until the big day!!!! 4 days more!!!!

19 weeks!!!

Finally. I have finally made it to the week before my 20 week anatomy scan. I know this seems crazy to anyone who is reading this but I can't help it. I have waited for the 20 week scan since I found out I was pregnant over 14 weeks ago. Since waiting has never been easy for me, I have learned to adapt a method which helps me stay sane during a long wait. The method is as follows;

Break the time into equal parts.
Dedicate each part to something, a home improvemnt project, a book, creating a new habit.
Try not to think about the final date, just focus on getting through each part.
Find as many distractions as possible.

Sad right?? I have always had this anxiety surrounding upcoming events in my life. I think seeing my baby on ultrasound for the first time (the first time doesn't count she or he was just a spot it was at 6 weeks 1 day)you know, seeing a little head, maybe thumb sucking and movement, has prompted more excitement and anxiety than any other event in my life. Of course what I really want to know is if the baby is healthy and hopefully a girl. Yes I want to know the sex, I wish I could have found out weeks ago. Now that I am here at the 19th week, I know I can make it one more week. Until then, I will be waiting for the next kick and the kick afetr that and well the, the kick after that.

Side Note: for 19 weeks I don't think I am showing very much but what do I know.

Campaigns and Kicks (Finally)

So I am officially living the life of a political wife. LOL Steve is busily working his way through the many twists and turns that are involved with establishing himself as a candidate. I could not be more proud. Though his decision was met with a bit of uncertainty on my part, I am sure of one thing. This is what God has in His plan for our family. Somehow the concerns that accompany our attempts at such an endeavor are completely calmed because of God's presence at the center of it all.

So I'm excited. We all are. We are blessed with a large group of friends, advisors and supporters who believe Steven is what the 58th house district needs. These people have been with us from the beginning and ironically pratically wished this pregnancy on us. So they will have a special place in the story of our baby's little life. Anywho, I love them all and I feel they have been purposely placed in our lives. Together we can accomplish anything.

Here is a picture of Steven getting a first peak at his campaign materials.




On to baby news. I finally have kicks!!!! I actually felt them before I wrote the previous post about kicks but like most first time preggos, I couldn't tell what those sensations were. I never felt the flutters or popcorn popping across my stomach. No butterflies or anything like that. Instead, I felt a small thump. Maybe 3 or 4 thumps at a time in lower region of my abdomen but the thumps would move around in someway or another. I initially thought it was some digestive system quirk but once I reached the 18 week mark, I realized I was well within the range of feeling a real kick. So I started calling them kicks. Besides I have never felt a digestive flinch quite that strong.

So yes world, Baby Turner is in there making all kinds of movements and stealing a little more of my heart with every flinch.

Wishing for Kicks

So a lot has happen since I last posted. We had one of those wonderful doctors visits. The ones I hold my breath for from about 5 minutes after I leave the last one. Crazy right? Well not so much. I had been extremely worried by the natural ups and downs that come with pregnancy. Who knew there would be so many symptoms? I know I didn't.

With every little cramp, pain, or dizzy spell, I worried something was wrong with the baby. I guess I no longer care so much about myself because I care less about anything that won't bother the baby. Anyway, these little worries would eventually compound into a full frenzy. Without an ultrasound or hearing the heartbeat or hearing my doctor say all was well, I was a wreck.

After the last visit with my midwife, I was assured my concerns would be put to rest as soon as I started to feel some kicks. So I have spent the last few weeks praying for kicks. I am not so sure if my prayers have been answered yet, but I thought I felt something. Even the thought of feeling kicks is amazing, I am not sure what I will do, when I experience the real thing. So I will keep praying for kicks and continue to brace myself for that moment. I am pretty sure it will be an experience I will never forget.



Side Note: I am finally growing a little bit. This tiny little bump has also helped put some of my worries to rest.